color processors, cats, and cupcakes

the title of the post might sound like a random list but it is what this week has consisted of so far. very simply put...

1. i walked into the photo lab on tuesday as i usually do for work and went straight in to mix chems...however i had to come back out and look around again because something seemed fishy. and there it was...out of the corner of my eye i saw it. a new color processor! and it is seriously so sexy! ha..it's much smaller and cleaner then the old one. long story short this saint of an alumni dropped it off for us without any compensation. how wonderful is he! the sad news is by the time it's set up I may only have a week to print...good news, leigh says i'm always welcome back and asked if i was sticking around for a little cause she would love me to do the artist in residency program :)

2. so on tuesday night i attempted to leave my apartment but was frightened back into it by a crying screaming cat who i thought was going to attack me. another long story short...this cat is now sleeping in my bed. turns out the cat was just hungry and is a super sweetheart. she is very well trained so she obviously came from someones home. she such a lover and even though we put up lost cat signs i'm kind of hoping no one calls because i'm a little attached already. p.s we named her sassy.

3. i spent most of my afternoon today making pumpkin cupcakes with cream cheese frosting and a bit of cinnamon sprinkled on top. i made some for stephens family, my family, and for us to have here. this is kind of silly to say but i feel like such an adult showing up to thanksgiving meal with something to contribute lol.

looking forward to the next couple of days with family and friends!!

happy thanksgiving everyone!!

a much needed weekend

so whether it's the fact that graduation is right around the corner (cause that makes everyone panic a little) or whether it's something else i'm unsure but my relationship has been seeing less and less cherry days. however, this was a wonderful and much needed weekend. there were smiles all around. we never get to go out much because we live a distance from town and of course drinking and driving is never an option. this weekend however we packed bags and decided it was time for a sleep over!!

i've been trying out new recipes and things to cook but friday will always be "friday dinner" night. this means pizza, hot dogs, french fries you name it...no good for you food. ha. so this friday we had our first guest for friday dinner! his friend and his friends roommate came for mac and cheese, hot dogs, tatertots, and beer as requested. we had a nice little meal and then headed into town for a night out. what a good time! its been a very long time since i stayed at the bar until the lights come on and then went to get pizza at 2:30 in the morning. while i was having a lot of fun, all of this made me miss my friends... A LOT! after pizza we headed back to their apartment and set up on the sofa. we stayed up and chatted for awhile until it was time for sleep. while sleep wasn't the best, breakfast was! they cooked us breakfast and we spent the rest of our day chatting and then latter napping...while i felt completely worthless on saturday it was worth it!

this is one of his friends, he is a riot! he is also become a good friend of mine and has been there for me when i need him.

what i realized was...

usually we don't have a good time when we go out because i'll admit it...i tend to jump to conclusions about small things or pick fights when i start to feel comfortable enough to bring up things that have been bothering me. i also tend to feel socially awkward when out. while he is a social butterfly, i tend to wait for someone to start conversation with me and when that doesn't happen i'm often comfortable finding somewhere to sit alone. this upsets him because he then feels the need to entertain me. going out had been particularly hard this semester without the people that i am most comfortable with, my friends!

this weekend i went in with a different mind set. 1. i wasn't going to bring up anything that didn't need to be brought up. lets face it being intoxicated is never a good time for healthy communication. 2. i wasn't going to let the small things bother me. lets face it i'm dating someone who tends to be a little flirtations in almost all the conversations he has, in a way it's part of his personality. unless i felt that he was really crossing a line i was willing to let things go. 3. i was going to try to come out of my shell a bit. i know all of his friends and see some of them on a day to day basis. none of them are particularly unfriendly and the only thing keeping me from talking to them was me.

all in all i was happy with the goals i set for myself. maybe i didn't actually chat up as many people as i thought i would, and maybe i cringed a little when he tipsily sat chatting on the sofa with another girl but when it came down to it i felt care free and i was having fun (i even got in a few jokes which is hard when your hanging out with boys who are pursuing stand up comedy)and in the end that's all that matters. we spent saturday night together with out arguing, getting angry, or getting upset. we lay together side by side cuddling and trying to finish off a ben and jerrys ice cream...perfect happiness.

a silly picture :)

re-blog...

so i started this blog awhile ago in hopes of posting my art, finished and in the process of, along with general ideas and thoughts on life (because i tend to be an over analyzer). i however at the time started using it as a way of venting on personal matters. while i am still at a somewhat of a vulnerable state and a little lacking in my art making at the moment i really want to use this site the way i intended.

i think it will also be a good way to track not only my art but my growth as an individual. i feel the need to be a stronger person inside and outside of my relationship and i know the journey will be an insightful one.

the gist...

just a little general info. about me and where i'm at right now...

i am a super senior getting ready to graduate in less then a month! i will be graduating with a bfa concentrating in photography and a minor in psychology. while pursing photography has always been my passion and dream i always knew there was something else. all my art work tends to fall around the ideas of relationships. i'm very interested in the way people connect to and interact with one another. why we do what we do or think what we think. the combination of art and psychology has pointed me to being interested in possibly pursing art therapy one day. after graduation i think ill be focusing first on getting a job but maybe i'll go to grad school for art therapy one day. i had an amazing internship this summer in new york and the woman who i worked for has become a great mentor and friend. i hope to work with her more and grow from there. i also recently shot a wedding. not my favorite thing to do but the realization of starting to have to pay off college is right around the corner!

i leave you with the image above...

it's from the wedding i just shot and while it's not the strongest image from all the ones i took, it is my favorite. there is something about the colors and the warmth. about their connection to one another. the way they're caught in the moment, they're ability to laugh and be comfortable with one another. the way he's smiling at her and the way he's making her smile and laugh.
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