so whether it's the fact that graduation is right around the corner (cause that makes everyone panic a little) or whether it's something else i'm unsure but my relationship has been seeing less and less cherry days. however, this was a wonderful and much needed weekend. there were smiles all around. we never get to go out much because we live a distance from town and of course drinking and driving is never an option. this weekend however we packed bags and decided it was time for a sleep over!!
i've been trying out new recipes and things to cook but friday will always be "friday dinner" night. this means pizza, hot dogs, french fries you name it...no good for you food. ha. so this friday we had our first guest for friday dinner! his friend and his friends roommate came for mac and cheese, hot dogs, tatertots, and beer as requested. we had a nice little meal and then headed into town for a night out. what a good time! its been a very long time since i stayed at the bar until the lights come on and then went to get pizza at 2:30 in the morning. while i was having a lot of fun, all of this made me miss my friends... A LOT! after pizza we headed back to their apartment and set up on the sofa. we stayed up and chatted for awhile until it was time for sleep. while sleep wasn't the best, breakfast was! they cooked us breakfast and we spent the rest of our day chatting and then latter napping...while i felt completely worthless on saturday it was worth it!
this is one of his friends, he is a riot! he is also become a good friend of mine and has been there for me when i need him.
what i realized was...
usually we don't have a good time when we go out because i'll admit it...i tend to jump to conclusions about small things or pick fights when i start to feel comfortable enough to bring up things that have been bothering me. i also tend to feel socially awkward when out. while he is a social butterfly, i tend to wait for someone to start conversation with me and when that doesn't happen i'm often comfortable finding somewhere to sit alone. this upsets him because he then feels the need to entertain me. going out had been particularly hard this semester without the people that i am most comfortable with, my friends!
this weekend i went in with a different mind set. 1. i wasn't going to bring up anything that didn't need to be brought up. lets face it being intoxicated is never a good time for healthy communication. 2. i wasn't going to let the small things bother me. lets face it i'm dating someone who tends to be a little flirtations in almost all the conversations he has, in a way it's part of his personality. unless i felt that he was really crossing a line i was willing to let things go. 3. i was going to try to come out of my shell a bit. i know all of his friends and see some of them on a day to day basis. none of them are particularly unfriendly and the only thing keeping me from talking to them was me.
all in all i was happy with the goals i set for myself. maybe i didn't actually chat up as many people as i thought i would, and maybe i cringed a little when he tipsily sat chatting on the sofa with another girl but when it came down to it i felt care free and i was having fun (i even got in a few jokes which is hard when your hanging out with boys who are pursuing stand up comedy)and in the end that's all that matters. we spent saturday night together with out arguing, getting angry, or getting upset. we lay together side by side cuddling and trying to finish off a ben and jerrys ice cream...perfect happiness.
a silly picture :)
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